It's time again for Five Minute Friday. Late because I've spent the morning trying to rest from trying to be a teenager last night and go see a movie at midnight. What was I thinking?? Anyway, if you would like to join in, please click over to The Gypsy Mama and read the rules!
This week's prompt: Grow
I wish to pursue so many things I sometimes don't even know where to start. I throw myself into a goal only to find life gently laugh as it reminds me of my responsibilities. You can face a goal head-on but there is always that balancing act of holding everything else together while you do.
I don't resent this life. Not in the slightest. I love my children, my husband. I love to nurture and care for them. I appreciate the time they give me to be me and to do things on my own. I appreciate their encouragement. Sometimes, when you have weeks like the one I've just finished, it's difficult to feel like your growth is not stunted.
As a perfectionist, it's hard for me to keep encouraging myself. Because I want the results now and I want them accomplished perfectly. I know that life will never allow me that. I suppose that is growth in and of itself- the knowing. It's working on accepting that and moving forward that is difficult.
So I continue to press forward among the girl's requests for a dance in the kitchen, a snuggle with my husband, the responsibilities of my home and my job. I know there is growth in those things and nourishment for the spirit. They are important for me and for them. Small miracles. I guess my growing spirit just feels selfish sometimes. It will get over it.