Since Matt and I got remarried, one of our focuses has been to get in better shape. Way back in March we started out really well. We were doing P90x every night for a few weeks. Then Easter came. We travelled to New Mexico to visit family and all our forward momentum came to a screeching halt.
Since then, we have started over and over again. When is best to work out? Mornings? So we tried mornings. Then we had too many mornings where we couldn't get up because we're just not used to being up before dawn. So, since we are night owls, we thought nights will work better. And we did fairly well, until there were nights where the girls got down late, or we ate too late, or we got busy doing things and it was too late to workout. So we decided mornings again. See a pattern?
Meanwhile, between the fact that all that weight I lost was fast and stress-induced and the fact that birth control and quitting nursing brought it all tumbling back, none of my clothes were fitting me very well. And it was getting worse.
So finally I asked Matt if he would mind if I started doing it without him during the day while he was at work. Things have been so hectic, he knew we wouldn't do it so he agreed. And off I went.
Since then I have been working out consistently 4-6 days a week for about a month doing Insanity and other things here and there. I have been watching my calories more closely (using myfinesspal) and I drink tons of water. In general, I feel a whole lot better about myself. I can see muscle tone in my obliques that I have never had. I am starting to see actual calves on my chicken legs...something I NEVER thought was possible. My arms are still wimpy, but seem stronger than ever.
Having always been a "soft" girl, I have enjoyed seeing these changes. Unfortunately, not much has changed in the way my clothes fit. I still have quite a mommy-pudge to contend with, and I have lost five pounds, but wanted to lose at least 8 by now.
I know much of the reason for my current weight is my body building muscle where there hasn't been any in many years, and in places I have never had muscle definition. I know muscle is heavier than fat. So that makes sense. I have lost inches on my waist, a bit on my belly, and my hips. My face looks a bit thinner too. Yet, I know that I have given myself perhaps more "cheat days" than I should. I definitely can eat less sugar and fat than I do, too.
Tomorrow Matt is going to try joining me doing early mornings again. If we don't wake up, I will do it later in the day, but it gets hard with all the responsibilities I have between my girls, work and my house, among other things. I would love to be more consistent with mornings so my days will flow better, and so I don't have to walk this journey alone. We'll have to keep working on it.
This is a hard change for me. Sometimes it feels easier to quit. But I know I won't be happy with that decision. I am motivated to make this a permanent lifestyle change. I want to feel good in my skin, no matter what "weight" that ends up being. I want my girls to see that an active lifestyle and that paying attention to what you consume is important. I want to fit back into my clothes again!!!!
If you have weight loss/fitness tips or advice, ideas for how to still eat chocolate on a diet, how to cook healthy AND yummy food for your family and kids, how to teach yourself to wake up before the sun, how you fit in workouts in your busy lives, or if you just want to tell me, "You can do this!", please leave me a comment, or send me an email. I would appreciate all the encouragement I can get!