I am feeling a little apprehensive. I do not know yet if I'm pregnant. I won't know until sometime between June 1st and June 4th. Why the 3 day range? I miscalculated CD1 as suspected. I thought had it all figured out until I took an ovulation test and discovered my LH surge was happening 3 days earlier than expected. Do you know what else this means? It means I did the HSG test on CD11 instead of during the CD7-CD10 window. I don't know if that's really bad or not, but it doesn't make me happy. All of this, along with the fact that my boobs hurt again (which means exactly nothing), leaves me feeling a bit like I've spun out of control. Being the control freak I am...well I'm sure you can imagine. These factors also leave me feeling like this isn't THE month...again. Well, I guess I kind of always feel like that...probably so I don't have to feel any emotion when it isn't.
Which brings me to my next cause of stress. If I am not pregnant this month,
I have to decide between doing the test or the procedure- for which I
am unsure if I have the money- or decide to try naturally for one to a few more
months. Honestly, I have no idea what to do. I'm lost and my emotions are only
leading me a thousand different directions. I didn't think it would be this
hard to decide...but how do you make that leap from natural to assisted? I
thought what I wanted was a solution...but the more I think about it, the more
doubts and fears I have about jumping. I just wish, for once, that SOMETHING
would be easy. I guess all I can do now is wait, and hope that either this is
THE month, or that I will find peace with at least one option. I need your
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