Hello Miss Paige,
A couple weeks ago you turned 9 months old. It pains me a little to think
all that time has passed. It seems like just yesterday that you were born. You
were so tiny, helpless, and actually a fairly cranky baby. Now you are the
complete opposite! You are my chunky, independent, carefree, blue-eyed beauty.
I love to kiss your chubby cheeks and those eyelashes are to die for! You will
probably get comments and compliments on your eyes for the rest of your
I wish I could explain to you what a blessing you have been to me- to our
family. I couldn't have asked Heavenly Father for a more perfect baby to have
while I've dealt with life since you were born. Our family fell apart and was
mended and you went through almost all of it without any trouble. I want to
apologize to you for not being the kind of Mom I wanted to be for you when you
were so little. I wanted to spend hours playing with you on the floor and
taking thousands of pictures like I did with your sister. Instead I played with
you a little bit every day, fed you, took care of you and loved you as often as
I could and you spent the rest of the time playing on the floor while I cried
and tried to sort through the hard things. I have so much guilt that I carry
with me for those few months of your life, but I pray that we still have a lot
of time together and I hope I can make it up to you. I will forever be grateful
to have you in my life and for how easy you were for me when times were
are my little sunbeam. Your eyes and your smile light up a room. You have
learned to shake your head "yes" and "no", clap, wave, and keep your hands on
the highchair tray when you are being fed. You are quite mobile using rolling
and the "army crawl" to get around with little difficulty. You are starting to
discover what "real food" tastes like and will vigorously shake your head "yes"
when you like something. You love music and will dance if you hear it. You
like to touch people's faces when you meet them, unless you are feeling shy.
You love your sister and are always watching her to see what she'll do next-
sometimes warily as she tends to be a little rough with you. You are tough!
You'll fight back if you have to, get angry when someone takes something from
you and aren't afraid to show it with a scream or a cry, and you'll even grab
hold of a dog if it gets too close to you...and it won't bother you again! You
have a funny low-pitched laugh and like to growl and "talk". Sometimes what you
say sounds like words we like to think are "hi" "mumum" and "dad". You are
sweet and special. I only wish I could know what thoughts you are having when I
look into those big, blue eyes.
I hope you know just how much I- we- love you. I can't wait to see what you